Muddy Mood

I am in a seriously muddy mood. 

And I can't seem to snap out of it.

I want to focus on two aspects of my life.  Deadlines and things that bring me joy. 

But instead, I am spending every moment focused on something that brings me zero joy and stress as far as the eye can see.

So I need to shake the funk.  And figure out a way to shake this mucky muck load.

Remember when I had my friend break up in the spring?  I felt like a new woman.  So much lighter.  But even then, I knew my next step would be to take a break from this other thing in my life. 

I can't yet figure out how to make that happen without actually moving to a new state.  But I'm at least putting it in writing that I need to get out of this situation before I require medication or an AA meeting.