I am in a seriously muddy mood.
And I can't seem to snap out of it.
I want to focus on two aspects of my life. Deadlines and things that bring me joy.
But instead, I am spending every moment focused on something that brings me zero joy and stress as far as the eye can see.
So I need to shake the funk. And figure out a way to shake this mucky muck load.
Remember when I had my friend break up in the spring? I felt like a new woman. So much lighter. But even then, I knew my next step would be to take a break from this other thing in my life.
I can't yet figure out how to make that happen without actually moving to a new state. But I'm at least putting it in writing that I need to get out of this situation before I require medication or an AA meeting.