Sunday, July 24, 2016

Sadie Sunday: Painting Through The Sadness

Dear Sadie,

I wish you were here, baby bunny.  

I sit on the floor in the evenings painting a lot lately.  Just like I have done with all of my artsy endeavors, despite having an amazing desk work space where I should be doing all of this stuff.  I sit on the floor with the TV on and I look for you.  You used to come "help" me by poking your cute little nose in every corner.  I'd talk to you and kiss your head.  You'd come in and out just to check on my progress.  We had a life and a language, you and me.  

I've really had a tough time lately.  The days leading up to the two month mark were just as hard as the days just after I said goodbye.  I am struggling.  And so I paint.  On top of yoga and sewing and gardening and writing.  I've been painting.  It keeps my hands and mind busy.  It's good for me to focus on projects in those quiet, lonely night time hours.  

For you, I am still painting rocks to add to your little spot.  I realize this is inching up on insane at this point but honestly, it's so calming that I just don't even care.  

The Sunday before I left for Florida, I brought you the latest painted additions.  I smile at how cheerful it looks right now!  I honestly think you would be tickled.

There is however a single upside to the past two plus months.  I am still not sleeping much.  No matter what time I go to bed, I am still up at nearly all of the hours.  I give up most morning and just get out of bed and start my day before the birds let out their first chirp.  So I tend to be a morning rockstar lately. I get a heck of a lot accomplished before 10 AM these days.

All the minutes of all the days, I miss you, Sadie.  

Momma loves you!

XO Momma

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

A Conversation With Bestie: Adult Coloring Books Baffle Me and BubbleBaths Do Too

This is how a recent text conversation went with Bestie...

Are you into adult coloring books?  I was given one for Christmas, colored in like two leaves on exactly one page, remembered that I don't like lines or colored pencils {or any pencils}, and here the thing sits.  I can add it to the box {of gifts} that we all hope will be sent {to you} this decade if you will use it.  I think it's like bubble baths.  They're popular {forms of relaxation}.  I want to love them.  I want to get why others love them.  But at the end of the day, I just don't.

I'm every so grateful for friends who just get me.  And who love me unconditionally, even when I make no sense!

Tuesday, July 19, 2016

Garden Update: Things Are Growing

Just a quick garden update....

A lot of things are growing really well!  I am pleased as punch with my broccoli, cauliflower, Brussels sprouts, cabbage, kale, and Swiss chard this year.  If I can keep the damn groundhog away, I might finally be able to claim success in the brassica department!  {knock on wood}

I have a total of 32 tomato plants.  A few of those are tiny as they were suckers I clipped off a few weeks ago.  I do this every year and it has mixed success due to our shorter growing season.  But still...32 tomato plants.  And so far {again...knocking on wood}, they look really healthy.  It all comes down to blight and human theft though.  Both will happen...but how much and how early in August is the question!  Crossing my fingers I am overflowing in 'maters because I love to can tomato sauce and tomato salsa and tomato jam {it's like adult ketchup}.  

I have so many potatoes this year- it's crazy.  No complaints there though as I love potatoes and they keep really well.  My sweet potatoes {which are actually only distantly related to a regular potato} are off to a slow and tiny start so I am not sure if I will actually get any this year.  Regular potatoes though are promising to give me a bumper crop.  Few things are tastier than a new potato you pulled out of the ground an hour earlier!

My winter squash are off to a great start.  I say this every year and know full well that I often lose out due to squash vine borrers and squash bugs.  But I have most of my plants covered to the best of my ability in netted hoops for as long as I can.  All I can do is try.  I also over plant what I need in hopes that if just a few produce, I will still be happy.  I have several fun varieties growing this year so if they make it and then still survive the human theft, it will be my kind of big time excitement.  Woot woot!

Now let's talk about summer squash.  It's a sad sad state of affairs.  I normally have a few green zucchini, yellow zucchini, round zucchini, white patty pan, and yellow patty pan growing well.  This year they were nearly all decimated by bugs before they could do anything.  The two that I have growing now I believe have squash vine borrers.  I am going to attempt to do surgery this week but my time is limited.  Agh!  Ditto on cucumbers.  The two easiest things to grow.

Speaking of normally easy but proving impossible this year...carrots.  I planted carrots three times.  {As well as parsnips.}  Nothing.  Just nothing.  So I just last week put in bush beans in hops of salvaging the season.  I wouldn't complain if I got a big crop of beans in to freeze for later use.  I love fresh green beans!

And that about sums things up.  Overall, I am really pretty happy with how the garden looks and how things are growing.  Every year is a giant lesson on pests and soil and growing practices.  I get a lot of compliments on Instagram for how my garden looks but I have to be very honest that for every success, I have at least two failures.  Or more.  I'm just persistent to the point of being a touch crazy with my willingness to keep trying and keep learning and keep tweaking my practices.  

So tell me...what's growing best in your garden right now?  Any big challenges this year in your garden?  And please tell me if you have the magic solution for Squash Vine Borrers or Squash Bugs!

Sunday, July 17, 2016

Sadie Sunday: Change Of Plans For This Florida Girl

Dear Sadie,

Last year when I was in Florida for two and a half weeks in July, I was an absolute wreck worrying about you.  You were so well taken care of by Poppy of course, but I was living in total fear that something bad would happen to you without me being there.  You did actually get quite sick, another bout of pancreatitis, but Poppy minimized the information he told me until I was back home.

It was right then, on the car ride home from the airport, that I vowed not to leave you again.  I would never go more than an hour drive from you and that meant that Florida was out this year.

While sad to not go see my people, you were always my number one and it was never a question that this was the right decision.

But you passed away.  And I have been a sobbing hot mess.  I need hugs and I need to laugh and I need to be with my people.

So guess where I am right now?  Yup...I'm in my beloved Sunshine State.  Still crying, but also laughing a lot.  And sweating my fanny off.  

This too, was the right decision.  It's good to be home.

XO Momma


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