Y'all are truly so wonderful! I cannot express how grateful how much it means that days later, I am still getting comments and emails and tweets. Honestly, I have no words. That has really lifted my soul!
I wish I could explain what happened. But I cannot. For a variety of privacy reasons.
I know that doesn't feel fair. To put it out there and not complete the story. But it's just how it has to be this time. I share a lot on here. But beyond my emotions, I am just not able to share more this time.
I also wish I could tell you that things have improved. They have not. I got choked up some this past weekend but it wasn't until Monday that I had an actual sobbing break-down. I needed it.
But in the end, things will find their way back to being better. Wrongs will be made right. Frowns will become smiles. Eventually.
This is my week from H E double hockey sticks. And that was before my world came crashing down around me. Before!
I know without a shadow of a doubt that I will NOT accomplish all I need to get done by Friday. There is no possible way for it to happen. And I might be doing laundry as I am walking out the door on Sunday. Heck I might just bring dirty laundry with me to do on vaca at the rate I am going.
But by Sunday night, I will be surrounded by the people I love the most.
My problems won't go away. They will likely follow me via text and email on my vacation. I'm OK with that. I think I can deal with things better while wearing flip flops anyway.
So here's to my realization that I can't do it all while managing an unexplainable personal crisis and not being able to sleep. For me, that's sort of a big realization. Growth? Age? Who knows. But it won't all get done and perhaps it's my lack of sleep but I honestly am very much at peace with it. For the next few days I am going to work my fanny off and leave the rest up to God. He's better at managing these sorts of things anyway.