Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Monday was not a very good day.
The details are unimportant.
Because the ultimate reason my Monday sucked was due to my own damn brain. I let my silly thoughts run away and then I got upset over nothing. Or over things that haven't actually happened or are entirely out of my control.
I think it started out as preparing myself for the worst so that I don't overreact in the moment. I'm like a closeted over-emotional girl. I mean, my emotions, good and bad, fall out of my eyeballs. But shhh...I like to pretend that no one is aware of this. So the end result is that I got myself all hot and bothered and worked up and nearly teary.
And I couldn't tell anyone that I let those silly thoughts run wild in my head all day because it's the sort of thing that never ever makes a lick of sense when you say it out loud.
I'm so ridiculous. I don't do this often, but yesterday I definitely let the crazy what ifs stomp on a perfectly fine day.
By midnight, I did figure out that the solution is to just end one situation and to suck it up and be patient (it's a virtue!) with the other situation. But it took me all flippin' day to get to that wisdom.
Ugh...being an emotional girl gets the best of me now and then!