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Late Tuesday night, I came home very upset after an incredibly exhausting and stressful meeting.  The meeting was the culmination of about nine months of discussions, hurt feelings, research, hard decisions and shocking realizations. 

Nothing about the meeting went well.  At all.

It was just chaos.  More accurately, it was a cluster {bleep}.

Bad, bad, bad and worse.

My head was spinning and heart racing as the realization of all that just went down set in.  Texting and talking to friends both helped and hurt my cause to calm down.

And then around midnight I realized what I really wanted. 

I wanted a somebody.

I wanted a partner.  Someone to listen to me ramble.  Someone to support me in one of those moments when I let stuff like this consume my world in such a rather obnoxious (and probably unhealthy) way.  And more than anything, I was desperate for someone to just give me a hug and rub my shoulders.

I just wanted a somebody.

Obviously, project I need to accept my lot is life is going swimmingly.  I am so totally not there.  Ugh.