I am about in tears. I have no idea how to fix this problem and I am just beside myself. Many many months ago I wrote a post. It was about that wedding I attended at a camp in North Carolina in the Spring. I was my normal sassy self in the post. Y'all gave me great advice and then I sort of forgot about it. OK, so I hinted at this next story but I never got around to writing it down. This one post keeps coming back to haunt me. Let me now finally give you the full story in hopes that you can either help me or just be aware for your own sanity....
So I went to the wedding and had a ball. It was a surprisingly fabulous weekend. Sunday morning I went down to the mess hall to eat breakfast early before my flight home. I'm in line for eggs when an older gentleman shouts across the room, "Are you the pink crocodile?" I froze. What the..? Seriously only a handful of my friends know about my blog. Mostly because they found it on their own accord and put two and two together. This was a complete stranger. To this day I have no idea who he is. I looked up from my plate and sort of muttered a confused and bashful "yes" to his question. Now there are at least two dozen people staring at me with questioning looks on their faces. And who could blame them as it was a very bizarre question to ask of a stranger. It must have been incredibly visible that I was beyond confused and shocked (as the color was no doubt draining right out of my head, I'm sure) so he said that he googled the attire for the wedding (it was a very odd and specific group of words) and my blog was the only thing that came up. I sort of mumbled something like "Oh sorry I wasn't more helpful" and all but ran to sit down and hide my head in shame. Not only was I called out but it was in front of dozens of strangers. More than that, I could not remember what I wrote and was incredibly worried that I might have said something less than nice. Something perhaps true and funny but not something I would ever want my dear friend, the bride, to read. So of course I had to then fess up to a few of my girlfriends that I had a blog and tell them the address. Which is all well and good but I was seriously soooo worried that I had totally done something that might hurt my friend.
The moment I got home I re-read the post, confirmed my worst fears and immediately deleted it. I sort of felt better. Well, not really. Ask Bestie, I seriously obsessed over this for a good week or two. Paranoia totally set it. I don't think the post was
bad. But it still was something that lead me to feel very guilty for being so sassy in regards to this wedding.
According to sitemeter though, people are still googling this particular set of words and that dumb post is coming up. But I deleted it? I never thought to google it again after I deleted it. Until just now when I looked at sitemeter for the first time in a month or two. I don't understand. Is it impossible for me to delete a blog post? I understand that once something is on the internet it is there forever. But like it is still on my blog. If you go to the month or the topic, it's still there. Even though I deleted it. It still shows on my blog. How do I fix this?
***UPDATE****
OK, with tears in my eyes I
think I figured it out. You have to actually go to the post and deleted it. Like as if you are changing a word, but I just highlighted the damn thing and hit delete. I am beyond mortified. It wasn't even a bad post. I just can't stand the thought though that I might have said something that could hurt someone I love. I am seriously soooo upset about my goof. It is 100% my fault for not being more careful.
Let this be a lesson to you (well if you are like me and didn't realize that clicking "delete" on the edit posts page would not really delete the post). I know many of us like to delete a post every now and then for whatever reason. Perhaps there is another (and better!) way of getting rid of an old post....if you know the answer, please please share!
I still feel terrible. I am still wiping away the tears as I type this. I feel like a jerk. I am usually so careful. Ugh this is such a crappy fine line to walk....the line between secretly venting and having friends secretly read your venting.
I'm not even going to re-read this rambling post. Because I am in a rambling, feeling like a horrible person who says mean things mood. Oy vey!