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Well...I did NOT see last night on Downton coming!  At all!  Shock of all shocks for me.

But let me preface this by saying I have amazing willpower when it comes to television, books and movies.  During the Olympics, I literally watch and read no news for fear of ruining the experience of the end result.  Instead, I stay awake until 2AM to have that in the moment experience.  I don't want to know what you bought me for Christmas (though I do think clues are totally fun).  I LOVE surprise parties (I've been blessed with several).  I don't skip to the end of a book. 

Sadly, I do not have this same willpower when it comes to other aspects of my life. 

But I do not watch more than the previews on PBS.  I don't read ahead or check blogs of those I know have already watch the British version.  I like to be in the moment for whatever odd reason.

So I did not expect my very favorite, or er, I guess second favorite (Anna is my very favorite), character to be killed off.  And in such a flippin' dramatic way.  Holy me oh my...that was a big way for Lady Sybil to exit the show!

I was feeling actual, tangible anger towards the two doctors who just threw up their hands and were all like, oh yea, nothing we can do, good luck with that, and stood in the corner.  But the whole time, my cup runneth over and is never half empty except when I am woeful about being old self still believed she would live. 

Y'all...I cried.  Over a TV show.  But a really good TV show so it's OK, right?

Oh and did anyone catch the baby's name?  I don't think they mentioned it but perhaps my shock blocked me from hearing it. 

I can't wait for the battle over the baby's baptism.  That actually reminds me of present day America.  Some things have yet to change.

And yet again, Lady Mary proves herself to be a total brat.  She's so pretty but such a snot.  She is clearly not yet on board with a penny saved is a penny earned mentality.

Sybil's been dead for a minute and a half and I already miss her.

Someone please tell me if there are some joyful moments in this season.  So far, there's been a lot of doom and gloom.

Who am I kidding...I don't want to know.  So please don't give it away.  I'll just cross my fingers that Matthew saves the day, despite Mary's bratty demands, and the baby girl gets a name.