Y'all are truly so wonderful!  I cannot express how grateful how much it means that days later, I am still getting comments and emails and tweets.  Honestly, I have no words.  That has really lifted my soul!

I wish I could explain what happened.  But I cannot.  For a variety of privacy reasons. 

I know that doesn't feel fair.  To put it out there and not complete the story.  But it's just how it has to be this time.  I share a lot on here.  But beyond my emotions, I am just not able to share more this time.

I also wish I could tell you that things have improved.  They have not.  I got choked up some this past weekend but it wasn't until Monday that I had an actual sobbing break-down.  I needed it. 

But in the end, things will find their way back to being better.  Wrongs will be made right.  Frowns will become smiles.  Eventually.

This is my week from H E double hockey sticks.  And that was before my world came crashing down around me.  Before! 

I know without a shadow of a doubt that I will NOT accomplish all I need to get done by Friday.  There is no possible way for it to happen.  And I might be doing laundry as I am walking out the door on Sunday.  Heck I might just bring dirty laundry with me to do on vaca at the rate I am going.

But by Sunday night, I will be surrounded by the people I love the most. 

My problems won't go away.  They will likely follow me via text and email on my vacation.  I'm OK with that.  I think I can deal with things better while wearing flip flops anyway. 

So here's to my realization that I can't do it all while managing an unexplainable personal crisis and not being able to sleep.  For me, that's sort of a big realization.  Growth?  Age?  Who knows.  But it won't all get done and perhaps it's my lack of sleep but I honestly am very much at peace with it.  For the next few days I am going to work my fanny off and leave the rest up to God.  He's better at managing these sorts of things anyway.