But today at 11AM EST, exactly one month after her 14th birthday, the vet will be at my home to help me send my best girl over the rainbow. Last night we took the best walk (well...she only actually wobbled/walked about a block...she rode in her stroller the rest of the way) that we've had in ages. I took is so slow and my dad came with us. It was so warm and sunny and lovely outside. We stopped at her favorite church garden and I took a few teary photos with her. She didn't even ask to get out of the stroller. She was just too weak.
I am heartbroken. I truly feel like my insides are split into a thousand pieces. Sadie is the love of my life and has saved me from myself more times than I can count over our 14 years as momma and baby. She has the purest, kindest soul and loves unconditionally. I have no idea how I will possible go on without her. But I know she cannot go on in constant pain. I love her too much to let my selfishness get in the way of what is best for her.
I feel an enormous amount of gratitude for the past 14 years with Sadie! I will never forget one minute of our journey together.